Good morning World. How goes it?
My how some time has passed since I have been on here. I am going to jump right in!
Have you seen the movie ‘Knocked Up’? Don’t you dare say no. If you have not, please add that to your watch list.
Anyway, the reason I am mentioning this movie is because there is a part with Leslie Mann {Debbie in the movie,and OMG I am obsessed with her} where she is extremely excited and hyper due to over-consumption of RedBull. Well. That is how I feel right now. Minus the RedBull.
Watch here:
What she said is exactly what I said to myself one day. I sat there and thought, you know what, “I’m going to create a new life and it is going to be fabulous!”
And I did just that.
Lord knows it was not easy to get here…
Last night I went back and read all of my old blog posts and thought to myself-wow, I was in a bad place. I even got teary-eyed thinking back to how hurt and down I was. I do not wish that feeling upon anyone. But that would mean life is fair!
The amount of times I heard it was going to get easier, time will heal all, you need to let it go, you need to move forward seemed IMPOSSIBLE.
Guess what?
It does get easier. Time has healed some wounds. I did let it go. And I have moved forward. {I just typed that with a smile on my face}
One thing I can tell you is, never forget that dark feeling you felt because one day you may be in that position again or you may encounter someone in that spot and ALWAYS remain humble when in that situation.
Nothing or no one has remorse for the ungrateful. What I mean by that is, you cannot continue mad at the world for where you are. You cannot keep a negative attitude because of how betrayed you feel.
You have to rise above the bad and the ugly. Once you do that, good will come your way. A positive mind is vital because what you think, you become.
Lastly, you have to forgive. Forgiving whether you truly want to or not, just do it. There is nothing worse than housing “hate” towards something or someone. Why waste the energy?
I say hate with quotation marks because that is a strong word I almost never use, but I say it because at one point that is what I felt. I won’t deny true feeling.
So yes, I have forgiven you. I have forgiven you for my own sake. My own reasons. Not because I am okay with it all, but because forgiveness is important and has to be done sometimes.
Or all the time.
At the end of the day, whether it be you, me or your best friend-we are all going to do what makes us happy. Because ultimately, that is what we all deserve.
Happiness.
Here comes the good part:
I found happiness in many things once on my own. And in many people. I met new friends and I even re-met old ones.
P was one of them.
It was on an infamous day we call, “Sunday Funday”. I saw him, not knowing if he had seen me yet. I turn to Shaunda and say, “I think I know him”. Mind you, I had not seen him in almost 9 years.
NINE years. Almost a decade. Cray.
And you know Shaunda, she bars none and went right up to him. What do you know?! It was who I thought it was.
We get to talking and the rest was history.
When I say I have never met anyone so:
• Selfless
• Intelligent
• Genuine
• Family-man
• Driven
• Honest
He lives up to every single one of those descriptions. Without a doubt in my mind.
It’s been over a year since he walked back into my life. Some of you knew and some may have not. But I chose to keep him in my business for many reasons that honestly, don’t need to be explained.
It worked out in my favor.
It has not been an easy journey. There may be more downs than ups, but that is the beauty of him. He chose to stand by me through this all. He was always there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. He gave countless words of encouragement. He has been nothing but amazing to me.
I thank God for bringing him back into my life. Not just because of all the good parts, but because he has become one of my best friends. I have genuine love for him. And this is one thing I never thought was possible.
So I guess you can say – I am giving love another chance.
XO, B
p.s. I cannot forget all the people who were there for me and helped me get here. I will never forget you. Ever. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
